a spiritual girl in a material world




While I’ll be watching the clear sky at Night
The bright Moon reflects parts of the Ocean
Unseen in Daylight

I’ll be sitting at the beach with my feet covered
by this beautiful white sand
Listening to the whispers of the waving sea
Visualizing you and thinking about we

While I’ll be watching the clear sky at Night
The Moon reflects parts of Me
Hidden in plain sight
Uncovering truths
That definitely lies within


Eating rhymes
and drinking Moonlight
You won’t understand
Cuz you’re not brained right
I could paint you my vision
But you have blindsight

Soon you’ll turn left
and start mesmerizing
Whilst being in the twilight
of your life, realizing

I’m still here
Still being real
Unconditionally loving
Without any fear


That connection
That when I think of you and you call me

That when I want to see you
And I bump into you

That when I’m feeling something
And you speak it out loud

That even when you’re across a full room
I can still feel you standing next to me

That even when I’m on the other side of the country
I can still feel everything between us so fully

That we don’t even have to speak
Because we can feel each other like no other

That connection

That’s a connection I will strive for


Solitude for me is key
Moments of reminiscing and reflecting

Solitude for me is key
Because all I need in this world
To elevate, motivate and complete me

Love liberates

‘I am grateful to have been loved and to be loved now and to be able to love, because that liberates. Love liberates. It doesn’t just hold—that’s ego.’ – Maya Angelou

Note to Self #2

I’m not a girl, nor do I behave act think speak like one.
I’m a Woman. A Queen.
And I’m fully aware that all external beauty fades. Eventually.
But Loyalty..
Loyalty is what I do desire in my Life. Absolute Loyalty is what I need in my Life.

Dreams can be built on the foundation of true Loyalty.

Loyal to yourSelf at all times first
Loyal to your Spiritual Partner
Loyal to the shared Vision
Loyal to the Process
Loyal to the End



There’s a point where I became Fearful
My freedom lies in overcoming that fear
Overcoming complacency
Becoming fearless
Comfortably numb
Purposely dumb
Programmed to move on command
To long for animated fairy tales that resembles nothing familiar to Real Life Experiences
I’ve mostly lived in my head
More than out here in the ‘real’ World
It’s been the lab where much of my anxiety first created

What to think
How to think
What to believe
What to be happy about
What to be sad about
What is appropiate
How to speak
What is proper
What are morals
How to love
Who to love
How to dream
And live..

Yet and still
I am a bundle of Light looking out of Myself
from the top hovering over Myself
With the compassion of a Mother for a Child
learning a thing for the first time
I am grateful
I have somehow managed to stay woke
even in the warm womb of complacency


We praatten tot diep in de ochtend

En legde me bloot
Jij legde je bloot
Tegen mij aan
Lagen naakt
Betastten elkaar
Lieten los wat was
Geen oppervlaktes
Dieper dan diep
Zowel in Spirit als intiem
Zagen zien en voelden elkaars Ziel

Hij sprak in rijm tot mijn verbeelding
Wat aansloot op mijn werkelijkheid
Iets wat ik was begonnen op te geven
In een wereld als deze
Een gelijke te vinden die
Hetzelfde hoort ziet herkent erkent ruikt proeft praat leeft en bovenal voelt als ik


Vijf dagen aaneengesloten

Aaneengesloten samengekomen

Durfde ik mezelf weer te geven?
Durfde ik de angst voor een gebroken hart naast me neer te leggen en te leven?
Durfde ik me te laten gaan en te zweven?

Durfde ik te geloven in een tweeling ziel?
Elkaar ontmoetend op het moment
Hoofd en Ziel overeenstemt
Met de Ander

Inner paths leading to
Higher paths

Togetherness versus

Synchroniciteit en Verbondenheid


Onvoorwaardelijk en Onvergankelijk

Zoekend naar onvergankelijke Liefde, hij
In een vergankelijk lichaam tho’, zij
The need to sort things out before he could make the fall – down
The need to feel a full commitment so she could completely take the flight – up
Mind – Body – Soul

Let’s meet in the middle

Straatverlichting begint te flikkeren op het moment dat hij zij langs komen lopen en rijmend praten over onvergankelijke Liefde en zonder angst durven te kiezen voor de Ander inclusief alle overwonnen bagage die zij beiden dragen

Straatverlichting begint te flikkeren op het moment dat hij zij langs komen lopen en rijmend praten over onvergankelijke Liefde voelen voor elkander misschien daar ergens in de verte verre verte hier en nu daar in de oneindigheid


Hij sprak in rijm tot mijn werkelijkheid
En ik durf nu te geloven dat het geen verbeelding was

Life support

People who leave their life choices in the hands of other people, they scare me.
How can you leave a life decision in the hands of an other person? I will never understand it. Unless you are on life support and it’s a matter of suffering on the way to death while you’re in a comatose state of life, I will never understand it.
I guess people like these, who leave life decisions in the hands of others, live in a comatose state of living. Living but not aware that every choice, even the choice to live or die – when still capable of thinking and breathing – is a responsibility of you and you alone. Damn.
Even matters of the heart, some people leave it in the hands of tarot cards or yes-no lottery picks. Hell nah. How can’t you just find your grounding state and leave it in the hands of Soul. Every person knows what to choose, if you are willing to pay attention and dig deep or deeper beyond the surface, beyond the boundaries set up by Mind.
How come some people choose to be willingly blind for surface matters? Matters of life purpose and love, matters of universal understanding and light? These people scare the fuck out of me. And although I can understand it in a certain way – I will never ever want to deal with such a person in this lifetime of mine.

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